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Get over itI was overly emotional last night/this morning. It's embarrassing. I went too far. I hate that. I don't want to be a negative person anymore. Stop assuming the worst. Stop letting myself get carried away in a downward spiral...
My relationship with him gives me something to work toward, a new reason to be a better person. He will be good for me. And I will be good for him. Good to him.
I'm tired of waiting, but it's not much longer at all. I could be handling this better. I just get irrational sometimes. Really, I shouldn't be complaining. Ugh. As my dearest friends would probably say to me, if you really wanted to change, you'd change! OK, so just do it.
It's funny - our families seem all for this move of his, and yet certain of our friends (on either side) are opposed to it. It doesn't bother me too much, since we each know what we want and that's all that matters. I just find the family/friends split interesting.
(thanks Eileen for the virtual hug. right back at cha)